i slept way too late, until 1pm. i don't know how tf i managed it. i wasn't even particularly tired last night. i don't know how i slept 12 hrs other than it was depression's doing.

i'm still depressed but not as bad as yesterday. i have something to drink. that always helps.

i'm just tired of the loneliness. i know sitting in my house alone doesn't help things. i just have no energy to do anything else, and i know no one would want to spend time with me anyway just because of how i am and what i look like.

my head is not even all-there right now. so sorry if this makes no sense.

about to drink on an empty stomach, wish me luck.