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I am going through something similar as you dealing with anger and dependency. Hang in there!

Nothing is wrong with you! It just takes time to sort things out. I understand what you are saying, but I don’t think that manipulation is the correct word. To me, the word manipulation makes it seem as if the behavior was pre-meditated and intentionally malicious. Neither of these describe you!

I think that dependency can come from not feeling whole, like there is a void. Who wouldn’t try to fill the emptiness? I can’t think of anyone that I know who has this feeling of emptiness that doesn’t look to others in an effort to fill the void. I truly wish that I could help you, give you an answer. Since I am in the same place that you are, I can only believe that all of us in this position will sooner or later be able to fill the emptiness and at last experience peace.

Take care!