I want to write something like this;

All apologies to people that I will leave behind I can't explain the pain and rage that dwells inside of my mind I feel I've lost the war inside my head that keeps me alive and everything I've ever loved is gonna slowly subside into the darkest night you've ever seen my soul is tainted, nothing clean some say that life is but a dream but nightmares only come for me so tell me where they go with inner demons at my do' their always fighting for control and trynna be feeding off my soul no longer know my ups from downs no happiness, just only frowns I’m always staring at the ground just hoping something comes around and now my visions blurry surely I’m fading fast and in a hurry. Maybe death will finally cure me, never thought I'd leave this early..

- Prozak