I can't trust them they will hurt me they will try and trick me they nearly did the last time I was there. I don't know what to do I feel like I have run out of options I am exhausted I want to scream I keep biting myself and pacing and I need I can't take this everything hurts and they won't well can't leave me alone the demons will never go away I was supposed to fix things but I screwed up cause I am stupid. Ugh I ruin everything.