Hi Anna. Welcome back.

Refuse to dwell on the past. Learn from it, but move on.

You are courageous to have revealed the truth. It took guts.
It's taken more courage to return here. And to receive help irl.

Keep looking ahead and focus on the bright spots/positives to help you get through.
You will heal. You will get better. I sense a determination/resolve in you to overcome past issues.

The serenity prayer is powerful.
Meditate on it for strength Anna. Put your hope in God.