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Originally Posted by Khione
Hi, I am diagnosed with BPD and Anxiety, and it's currently a pain in the ***.
I have this thing where I feel like I'm being watched on a constant basis. I know that I'm not, but it still feels like I am. And I can't shake the feelings. Usually it doesn't bother me, I get on with my day and it doesn't stop me from doing anything.
Now this might sounds stupid, but I want to start dancing - I used to love it as a child and I did gymnastics too, I was fairly good. But in the last 10 years (I'm 18) I haven't set foot in front of a mirror other than to do my make up. And I so badly want to dance and do dance covers to songs and stuff, but I am absolutely terrified and paranoid that I'm being watched (even though I know I'm not), the crippling fear of looking stupid is preventing me from doing something.
I've got anxiety meds (Propanalol) but it doesn't work for thoughts, only for physical symptoms.
What should I do? I don't have a doctor to see or anything.
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There is NOTHING stupid about wanting to start dancing. I can only say DO IT DO IT DO IT DO IIIIIIIIIIITTTT!!!!
This sounds like a fantastic idea!!!! I'm a writer/actress and have found that when I don't get to engage in this activity I feel SO much sadder.
Go dance! Do whatever it takes to go dance! I wasn't sure from your post, but were you saying you just want to dance alone at home, or that you want to do it in public? If you want to dance publicly, can you take a class that's for super duper beginners so you don't feel intimidated by others in the class? Can you let the teacher know you've got anxiety about what you're going through but really want to do it? I say do whatever it takes to get dancing again.