My therapist has been gone for about 6 weeks and I am so angry with her for that. It feels like she has deserted me and just does not care. She is back now but I am so angry I will not go see her. It is like I am punishing myself for being a bad person. My depression has gotten worse and the nightmares have gotten worse also. Sleep is not easy right now, my pdoc has given Meds to sleep nut I do not stay asleep all night. I keep everyone out of my life and have not been on this site for a long time. I did not want anyone to help me or to care because I am a bad person. If I was good I would not want to hurt myself by cutting. I am so tired of the depression, nightmares, the anger, etc. it has been like this since I was in my teens. In the hospital a number of times for trying to kill myself, depression. It just does not seem like it is going to get better. You take Meds and you have therapy for what?