Had a great time going to dinner with friends and then going to an estuary where there are lots and lots of sea otters -hurray!

But the only reason why I was coherent with them was because I downed a can of double espresso just before we went out. This titration of Seroquel isn't working for me. Got me out of the depression I was in at 75 mg but pdoc wants to go much much higher, so I've been following the titration schedule.

Will see pdoc on Monday and tell him that I want off of this, maybe just 25 mg to sleep, but they're going to have to find another AP for me. I do take Abilify, but they want something stronger. I hate how the stronger AP's seem to have the worst side effects and I'm scared about trying out a new med (what might it do to me, how would I feel, how would I act??), but I just can't do the Seroquel thing. I. am. an. utter. idiot on this cr**.