I have always felt like I have 2 different sides in me. Like for example, if I got in fight with anyone, my first reaction would be, "why are people always so selfish?" but then the next second I would think that it's probably my fault because I'm useless, not wanted, etc. It's like sometimes I can be completely heartless and doesn't care about anything but my own happiness but the other time I sacrifice my own happiness for people I care about. Sometimes I just want to say, "Screw it! Who cares what people say." But then sooner or later I always think of the consequences or the effects that might affect the people around me. It's confusing. I don't get it.