today is father's day.

father's day is always hard on me.. i never met my dad, and no one ever told me anything about him (and it kills me not knowing!)

i've asked about it, but each time i've just got the answer.. well, you don't want to know- but their's the thing. i do. i do want to know.

such a meaningless day to me when i think about all the people who do have fathers they can send cards to and stuff.

oh i can't wait until it ends so i can get back to... feeling a little less crap than i do now, or something.