Just throwing this out there. She wants you to learn to self-soothe. That is the goal of a lot of therapists I had. Wouldn't it be better to learn how to do it now rather than wait until she retires, gets a different job, has an accident etc? You can do this. I know you can. You have demonstrated in a lot of ways that you are emotionally and mentally strong. It will be hard at first. Each day you don't email congratulate yourself. You will feel better about yourself also knowing that you are stronger than you think. What would you do if she retired? She is actually helping you with your attachment issues by trying to teach you not to depend on others to help you feel okay about yourself.