I'm feeling also guilty because I have broken my promise to my father. He was a wonderful man and before he died I promised him to take care of my mother. My mother was kind of jealous of my relationship with my father and she never wanted for me to be alone with him just to talk. Sometime I took drive just to see if I could see him taking a walk ot find him in a store so I could be with him. I miss him very much.

Someone told me that my sibblings were jealous of me but this is hard to believe because I have nothing and I feel I'm nothing. They spreaded lies about me and still do, like I'm selling drugs and soon I will be in jail. If I was doing this I would know how to buy food tomorrow but I don't have money not even to buy food. They say all kind of stuff about me and I don't even know why. Sometime I think they goal is to drive me to suicide so they will not have a murder on their hands. I know this is cruel for me to say but they have hurt me so much and they still do. This is why I have to put distance between me and them. It's hard for me to do this because I still love all of them. I just couldn't get my message through to them.

Thank you!
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