Lately, I feel like I've been making so many big plans (vacations, etc) and spending a lot of money impulsively on things and people in order for them to be able to do all these things that I want to do. The excitement feels good, it's sort of catching up with me where it's hard to keep up with my thoughts and schemes anymore. When I try to slow myself down though, I feel I'm unable to and that my mind just won't stop.

Also, I worry too much about others lately and what they think of me, and I get sort of concerned that they will decide they can't keep up with me anymore, although so far my (new) significant other seems to be excited about everything I keep up with. I hope it doesn't fall apart. I feel I'm losing control, and I'm anxious about it. I feel like I'm all over the place, easily distracted, and it's hurting both my self-esteem and wellbeing. I also feel I come off as a space cadet as well at times, and I hate giving that impression since people are not very understanding and lash out in frustration when I get that way. Then, I feel horrible. I hope I don't get full-blown manic as a result of the way things are going....or that I don't crash into a depression. Can anybody relate and have any advice to help get through this period?