Hi Atoll,

I am sorry you are suffering so much. It sounds that something in your therapy was traumatic. I am not sure exactly what it was because it's hard to understand it from your description.

I understand that seeking therapy right after a traumatic experience in therapy is the last thing you would want to do. A good place to start at this point would be some kind of support hot line where you can call and tell about your situation and see what they can suggest. I see that you are in Austria. I believe, there are support lines and free referral services in your country. I suggest you to utilize their help as much as you can.

Good luck.