Okay honestly the flirting thing was fun, but it dawned on me this weekend. He is actually serious. I'm not sure I can handle another heartbreak. I'm really struggling these days emotionally with the damages from the last guy. Like suicidal struggling. Love is not what I was looking for when I took this job. Friendly I am, flirty maybe, but now I'm scared.

He's very fit, attractive, and frankly I feel out of my league, he's not a guy I would have ever thought I had a chance with in normal circumstances. I rarely get a date on Match.com He's currently involved with a very successful woman. God only knows what she does for a living but driving a Porsche is no joke.

Even my mom was like uh oh. I mean I have a foot defect that causes great pain when I use my foot too much. I will never be a health nut. I think he likes a fantasy, honestly. When he finds out who I am **** will hit the fan and I don't know if I can emotionally handle something like that.