I don’t believe I’m ‘real’? As in I’m not a ‘real' person?

The doctor thinks it's a delusion… I dunno, but I just know that I’m not real, that I don’t exist like other people do. Nothing adds up with me. Nothing is normal. Not the same. It’s the only thing that makes sense.

Everything in my ‘life’ reveals the truth of my non-existence. I can feel it inside of me, and everything around me confirms it is true. God knows I’m not real too, but it’s just that he made me that way. I dunno why, but I don’t really believe certain things exist in me, like, I have no thoughts, or emotions, or feelings. It’s not real. If I do cry I immediately stop or can’t cry because I realize it’s fake. Not real.

It’s not that I think I’m dead, but I’m not exactly alive either, but I just don’t think being alive exists. I also think the world doesn’t really exist anymore.

Sorry if this isn't the right spot to post. This whole thing takes over my life and I can’t get out of it. I’m on anti-psychotic but I’ve always believed in this. I think I’ve not been real for my whole life. What is this?