Hello MommyDear: The Skeezyks does not have this problem. So I'm not the PC member you wanted to hear from. But I saw no one had replied to your post. So I thought I would.

You need to reach out for help, MommyDear. You wrote you've been addicted for "umpteen" years. You haven't been "sober" for even a cumulative year. You're spending hundreds & even thousands of dollars on drugs. You have a 4 year old daughter. To be blunt... it's time to own your situation. It's not just a matter of your daughter's pride versus shame. It's also a matter of her physical as well a her mental health, & perhaps even her life... should she follow in your footsteps.

If the cold hard reality is it simply isn't possible for you to get well, then please do whatever needs to be done to ensure your daughter has the chance to walk a different path. I wish you well...