Sorry to hear that. Thanks for the welcome. I have already found so much help on this sight. I will be back often. Hope tomorrow is a better day for you! Finding help on this sight has lead me to admit my father's and brother's sexual abuse towards me as a child. I am just now starting to come to realize how it has affected my life. I have denied and suppressed it so long, it is hard to confront for me. But with the help I am finding here, and in therapy, I hope to conquer it and live the rest of my life the best I can. I am not sure which is worse, having no father or having the kind of father I had. There was a lot of good in him. I need to come to terms with that.

Luckily, I broke the cycle of abuse and have three wonderful children of my own. But my abuse has still affected them and my wife. It has taken her leaving me to finally bring me to a place where I can finally admit to the abuse I endured and how it has affected me and those around me. I have alot of amends to make to them. I am so ashamed of how long it has taken me to realize how my childhood sexual abuse has affected me and my family. I hope I can learn how to cope with this and function normally the rest of my life.