I didn't have classes in the past four weeks... I have been studying and finishing some papers, but no classes.
Tomorrow is the first day of my last class as a medical student. I haven't seen my school mates in a while and I have been living these past weeks at my own pace. I don't like that I will have to break my rytmh... But I was getting use to this no pressure life style, now I have schedules.
This afternoon was my sister birthday party. By the way she entered in psychiatry, it was her dream, and now I am going to have a psychiatrist in the family, I am very happy and proud of her.
Long story short:at the party I end up gathering with some relatives that I don't see frequently. And this made me be aware of my social anxiety... Not things that others could notice. But the uncomfortable feeling inside, even next to a teenager cousin or a child of another cousin.
I went to Brussels the other day, a trip also rich in stories that should deserved to be told... But I just want to tell about mine that nobody realized. We went on a tour through the city with a guide and before the tour started she told us to introduce ourselves to somoene in the group that we didn't know. This lead me to a feeling of panic inside... Luck mine, everyone turned to somoene and there wasn't anybody near that still hadn't find a pair. So I didn't have to interact with someone know. But I can say, for some moments it really scared me.