Well i think that fear afects you very much and become more powerful every day .To stop it you must practice autosugestion every day by repeating oposite ideea every day .Start repeating for yourself in your mind next afirmation : I am very courageos person .You must repeat 5 minutes before you sleep and also 5 minutes imedialty after you wake up and in the middle of the day also .Its very important to repet it with emotions because subconstient can be maniopulated with emotions and be persistent make this a daily ritual