Seeing a new pdoc today because mine is now on maternity leave. I'm really nervous, especially because I'm going to both have a resident there as well as the head of the Bipolar Clinic at the same time in the room. I'm not good at opening up and I just hope they will help me feel comfortable.

I want a change in meds but am conflicted as to what I want, what might help, or not help... I've seen so many differing experiences/opinions here on the forum, though what I've read has also been helpful.

I hope they can help me find something that won't make me sedated and with cognitive/memory issues. But I need something that will help me sleep too. And I don't want to just add another med, I feel like I already take too many.

I'm really nervous, I'm scared...Ugh, ugh, ugh...