Saw T this morning, and that just increased my frustration. She can finally see that I'm doing really badly, and said that this is the worst she's ever seen me. But she still doesn't get my lack of energy and motivation. I don't believe she has ever experienced depression herself. She keeps trying to get me to challenge my negative thoughts and set goals to get myself to do things during the day and after work, but when I'm honest about what I think I can get done it doesn't seem like enough to her. Yes, I complain about not having the motivation or energy to keep my apartment clean, but after an emotionally draining session with her and a 10-hour work day, I'm not going to go home and clean anything. I'm going to go home and sit on the couch, like I do every night. I'm really starting to see how her style does not work for me, which is making me even more anxious for the appointment I have next week with a new T. I just need to figure out now how to ask her about her style so I can determine if it will work or not.