Hi T-on-leave,

I've passed my exams. Now I can start college in September. Current T had asked to send an email when I got the results, so I did. I got an email back to congratulate me and she wrote that she's very proud on me. Would you say that to me? You would probably say something like that's soo good of you, you should me proud of yourself. But would you also say that YOU are proud of me? Whatever. It doesn't really matter, does it. You're not here. You weren't here for me during my exam period. And you won't be here for me when college starts.

I still feel abanded by you. I can't help it. I can't think or feel differently about it. And it still hurts that you didn't let me know what you thought of the gift I gave you. Even an email of one sentence was appearantly to much for you.