I know what you mean, and it makes me very upset that people in any country don't have enough access to help. It is so hard to keep going, and the reality of PTSD is that it is not unlike a permanent injury from a damaged body part or something. We will never be 100% free of it, but I try to think of it like wrestling a huge, vicious beast and pinning it to the ground. Some days it will pin me, but the more I try new techniques to get it to submit, the more autonomy I have. Recently, I was thinking about how being around supportive people, while not a substitute for formal therapy, can be therapeutic (if you see the difference). If you have friends or anyone you can trust, can you hang out with them, whether it's talking about what happened to you or just shelving it for a while and doing something fun? I think the more positives we can bring into our lives whether they are relationships, activities and interests, etc. can broaden our world and give perspective. Anyway, you are not alone in how you feel, and I know how impossible it feels to ride out the days or weeks when it feels like nothing will ever change, but try to look backward and notice any progress you have made, compare yourself today to an earlier time---it's so unlikely that you haven't worked through anything at all. I'm sure there is evidence, no matter how small, that you have been resilient and taken care of yourself. I'm not trying to be a Pollyanna, but can you locate any opportunities in your adversity? Sometimes there are chances to reinvent yourself or improve something in your life. It's not denial of what happened or trying to say "everything happens for a reason" (horrible expression), but more like taking back aspects of your life that have been hurt so that the person/thing/event that caused your PTSD has less power over you. Please take care, best wishes on your journey,
-Sriracha