Hi all,
I'm new here. I'm lurking around the internet trying to get a couple answers, because I'm not sure what's going on with me these days! Basically, my mental health problems started ~3 years ago (I'm 20 now) but I was in denial about it all for a while until it got really bad and I finally got help, was dx GAD and MDD. To date I've only had 3 "real" depressive episodes (some periods of low-grade depression as well) and I'm actually just coming off of the most recent one. But lately I've been thinking back to a period in my life, about 2ish years ago when I first started college, in which I was on top of the world for about a month. It's difficult for me to say whether it was situational, because I brushed it off as that, but I think I kind of knew it was abnormal. I spent almost all my savings, became super involved, partied hard and got wasted every weekend, thought I could pass my classes without trying, was super outgoing and made friends who thought I was "the wild one". I guess I thought people change in college, but now I'm not 100% sure.

Anyway, I've been severely depressed the past month-ish, and then the past week I have been feeling pretty weird and kind of agitated, and I get the feeling something is changing in my brain, but I don't know what. Then the past couple of days my mood has improved dramatically, like no self-deprecating thoughts etc etc, actually doing things, and I have lots of energy and am starting to do work, clean, etc. Now, it's hard for me to tell--could I have bpII and may be heading toward a hypomanic episode, or am I just being paranoid about both instances (I do have GAD, so.. ).

I realize you all cannot diagnose me, but I would really appreciate any input you can provide. I do not see my therapist for 2 weeks and psychiatrist for a month so I do not have any professionals to bring it up with ASAP.

Thanks a ton!