For what it's worth, I often feel like this as well (or much of it and similar things).


BP developed for a reason. My personality developed for a reason. Maybe I should have more faith in myself and ignore anyone who has problems with my behaviour. I could explain, but they still wouldn't approve. Treatment makes us docile and weak. At least all the talk. It's conditional love/care.


I also did have a lot more resilience. Now I'm just afraid of myself.