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Originally Posted by Wander
Thanks again everyone. In a locked ward right now in a state hospital (allowed phones without chargers). Had 2 hours sleep. Waiting to see psychiatrist to be discharged to my normal hospital. A little more stable today as in I don't plan to die. Still feel hopeless, dead yet agitated and very low. Have no idea what my pdoc (at my usual private hospital)has planned but I NEED help. I can't live like this. Feel like everything has already been done. Like a failure.
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You are not a failure. Stability sometimes takes time. Give it time. It reminds me of the Amy Grant song, "It Takes a Little Time."
"It takes a little time sometimes to get your feet back on the ground. It takes a little time sometimes to turn the Titanic around. It takes a little time sometimes. Baby, you're not going down. It takes more than you've got right now. Give it, give it time." Not the most brilliant lyrics, but it's a catchy song and it encourages me sometimes.
From my experience, pure mania or hypomania takes less time to get under control than depression or depressive mixed states. I wonder if anyone else has noticed that.
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...Out of night and alarm
Out of terrible dreams
Reach me your hand!
This is the meaning that we suffered in sleep:
The white peace of the waking.
~Edna St. Vincent Millay, "Song of the Nations"~
Diagnoses: Bipolar 2, OCD, Chronic Worrywart
Meds: Lithium (reducing), Trileptal, Latuda, Risperdal, Klonopin and Xanax PRN