(((MOUSE))). I would like to say this in a manner not to trigger you in any way. I know to you this may sound obsurd or unwarranted, but everyone that likes and adores you at this time have learned that you are a caring and honest person and that you are a very loving and caring individual, mainly because you are aware of what you have been through you would not want another person to go through themselves. With that said I want to express some concerns that I have regarding what you said about the head mistress. What she said to you was not necessary or warranted she was just wrong in what she said to you when you were that age, it is no wonder you have so many questions about yourslf when everything and everyone was so negative in your past. I hope that someday that you will be able to overcome the fears you have regarding these issues. I think that it is very commendable of you to get the help you ned to unleash all of this fear you have had for so long. Also in reagard to your fear of starting your period on your counselors couch ( I have the very same problem when I get stressed and sometimes I do start out of sinc with my schedule due to stress), therefore, I just go prepared if I know there is a possibility of starting early by wearing a pad in case it happens. The best part of knowing or being fearful of being in an unhealthy or stressful situation, is to take a few minutes to prepare for the event so you dont have to continually worry that something like starting your period at the wrong time may happen, you will be prepared by already wearing a pad and know that you will be okay while you are at your therapist Appt or another event where you would like to enjoy yourself. I know how you feel my family was notorious for planning events, vacations where someone would be unable to enjoy themseves due to starting their period ( I am speaking of me starting on a vacation of course), so needless to say I have been there and done that many times to the point is I have learned to be prepared for any occasion where starting my period would be a possiblility for my own benefit. I hope things get betterf or you Mouse. You are not alone and I hope you know that whatever you have been throughthat you do not have to be alone. Take care Mouse PM anytime. Soidhonia.