((((MOUSE))). I am sorry that you are struggling at this time. There are times for therapy and times for relaxed therapy where things can be a little laid back. You may need to talk to your therapist about some relaxed therapy where you can go pick up lunch and just sit with her at lunch to relearn your concepts of realizm. This is something that we do at our NAMI meetings where we have meetings where everyone brings a covered dish and everyone just sits and eats and talks about what is happening at that time that they would like to talk about. This meeting redirects the structure of being fearful to communicate when things are not going exactly as they would like, while still getting the postive feedback they need in a nurturing and safe manner.. I get numerous compliments for the meetings because most people were never allowed to talk or get the recognition they deserved and that played a major role in how they view themselves and their level of self esteem. I sincerely feel that you and your therapist would really get a lot out of erlaxed therapy or meetings where lunch or dinner is involved, because that would help you see that your therapist is a REAL person and that she is not just something you have imagined in your mind and you may feel that your nuturing needs are being met with the meetings as well without feeling that your boundaries have been violated. You will have to talk to your therapist to see whether relaxed therapy is something she is interested in at this time, In Ohio where I live it is a very productive procedure and fun as well. Take care Mouse. Soidhonia