it got bad again. mom and i fought. i said i forgive her but i don't. actually she didn't say sorry, i did. but i can't trust her. and i'm tired of her acting like her entire life depends on me. she's so manipulative, i told her that too.

truth is, i'm just done. nobody cares. people say otherwise but then where the **** are they? nobody loves me. what's the use?

again, i need to be held and nobody's here. it's always like this,