Do not hurt yourself more by "reparative" therapy. Please. The real name for that ought to be "destructive therapy". Your sexual preference and identity is not a flaw, not an abnormality, not something that needs repair. All societies are flawed in their own way, and it makes me desperately sad to hear about the enormous hate and intolerance you meet in your society. But that does not mean there is anything wrong with you.

I know so many Christians who fuel hate and bigotry. No, they are not all like that, but many are (in spite of the fact that it is very anti-Christian behaviour to preach any kind of intolerance, and calling LGBT preferentiality or behaviour a "sin" is the same as breaking the whateveritis commandment against lying. Sexual preference is not a sin, and sex that does not hurt others isn't either - that's all man made fabrications unrelated to anything Jesus ever said). Again, it is horrible that it happens to you but it is not your doing and not your fault.