ok so i am not in hospital right now but i saw my psychologist again and he wants me to go to an inpatient psych hospital that is like 3 hours away from my home and in another state. it is private and my insurance covers it but he said he really wants me to go there. he said he thinks it will be good because i wont be able to "fly under the radar" as much and i wont be able to hide things as much. he said he is going to call my psychiatrist and my mum already called the hospital and they said they would call back tomorrow. i am scared i mean i said i would go partly cause i didnt want to go back to the other hospital but also cause i have gone past the point of caring where i am but i am scared i dont know what it will be like and i am scared of the doctors there finding out all of the stuff going on with me and i dont know what to think everything happened so fast. i am so tired too i dont even know what to think.