I don't even know where to post this. Here we go again, I am getting myself worked up on my way to my next tantrum attack. I don't know if I have BPD or just a lousy marriage.

Sunday, I initiated sex with husband and he didn't 'reciprocate'.
Monday, we got a new bed which means a lot because we have had sexual problems our whole marriage and partly blamed the bed. He just gives me a good night peck on the lips and goes to sleep.
It's Tuesday morning, I am getting worked up.
So, how do I deal with this constructively? I am going to try to keep my mouth shut and not complain to him. I am going to have to patiently wait for him to initiate sex, which he will do come the weekend. Because that is what he thinks the plan it. He doesn't even think I am wanting or expecting sex. He wouldnn't even dream of initiating it. He is so passive and lacks any personality, he waits for orders from me. I don't even want to have sex with this man. I just hate having to be stuck with another human being to cooperate with me in my sexuality, who I don't even click with. It's like being constipated. Could you imagine needing to make a BM but being dependent on another person to tell you when to go?