Can one be a T and have all of this **** to go through? I want to. I know I can keep it in balance once I learn my triggers and get out of this . I want to be an example, I want to help others, I want to give, I want to be inspiring. You said I inspired you, did you really mean that? Still finding things to look forward to and figure out things to do everyday that make me a little bit happy. I want you to be my mother. That's what I want. I want to be 4 years old and living in your home.