I am usually anxious before logging on here everyday. I feel a sense of danger, often associated with posts I've written. At first I thought it might be a self-confidence thing, a negative self-talk thing. But it just occurred to me that it might be also be because I'm starting to push my self to open up here--I feel danger because opening up probably makes me feel vulnerable.

I know that feeling in danger here will make me susceptible to getting triggered so I need to be careful and stay calm if I react to anything. So far, it's only happened once, and i actually only just now see how what I did was partially a response to being triggered.

Anyway, I'm still plugging away, floating, not yet sinking.....

--Ceara1010