So the guy i've been dating for 2 months dumped me tonight. We are both bipolar, met when we were both hypomanic, and it was seriously amazing. Anyways, i caught herpes from my last partner, and i told this guy right in the beginning. He seemed totally fine with it. Now he wants out because he doesn't want to ruin his sexual reputation by having to tell people he's with me, and it's not consent if he doesn't tell people. We are in an open relationship, so it does matter, and it's a fairly small community of people in open relationships. I've told my family and friends about how great he is, and we've planned a vacation together next week, i even booked time off work. He says he loves me, but can't get over this, because even though he might have it, as long as he thinks he doesn't there is nothing to disclose. He has oral herpes (cold sores) anyway, which i don't have. He thinks he was less of jerk for trying it for a couple months, but i think this is worse, and he shouldn't have let me get attached. I actually thought we were in love. What a delusion. I'm feeling so alone, empty, despair. There is so much about me that i can't change - bipolar, herpes, a past addiction. I know i'm a good person, but finding someone cool who is willing to overlook all that just seems insurmountable. I just want to give up, want to disappear. I really can't see my life ever improving in any real or lasting way. I'm so humiliated. I am not going to hurt myself, but i really want to right now. I just want off this ****ed up ride. It's making me so sick.
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