I know how you feel. For the past two years i've had a Spring hypomania in which i planned these grand renovations to my condo which would have bankrupted me. I enlisted the help of my neighbors for advice, floor plans, negotiating with the Condo Board, etc. Both times i wound up crashing and doing nothing. It's so hard to face my neighbors now because at best they must think i'm unrealistic and at worst a whack job.

I thought the Spring renovation hypomanias were inevitable but miraculously this year i have skipped it. I am coming up on one year of stability on mild to moderate depression. It's not ideal but it's a lot more manageable than hypomania.

Just my story to show that it's not inevitable that we will behave like idiots and have a hard time living with ourselves after. Who knows what lies ahead? Maybe you'll have a peaceful year like me!