This was me with outdoor adventuring. One day I am casually paddling across a reservior and two weeks later across the ocean. I figured I was a world class adventurer - even National Geographic wanted to interview me I was convinced of. I did do some pretty amazing things in this chase for adventure and risky out door sports but I didn't want to believe that my exploits weren't extraordinary.

My other manic thinking was that my group of musician friends were the best thing going and that they were going to be discovered any day and become the most famous group ever - even better than the Beatles; and, because I hung out with them I would become famous too.