I admit I popped off this thread in a very resentful and irritated mood. I am doing my best to leave it. It has been triggered by some PTSD memories that have spilled over. Acknowledgement is a big theme in my life. Lack of it for things that have occured or things (like work) I have done seem to rue the day. Oh to be sure I still feel those emotions I have listed above I usually don't allow that to pop up in my daily life. It usually takes a trigger. When I have calmed a bit I am usually in a better way to consider the evidence things are for the better and I am no longer in the situation. That is about where I am right now.

Thanks everyone for providing that acknowldegement and level headed advice.