I'm inpatient and have been for 1 week. I see the T twice a week. They're not helping me, i see no way out. All i can see are the bars at my window and my belt to strangle myself . I feel like doing it so much! Its an obsssion. No matter how much i tell them i feel bad, they either give me something to color or bland sedatives. I'm fed up with this all. Nothing works. I need, have, want to kill myself.