Well, I'm back again and frustrated. I've done a pretty good job from escaping and ignorring the triggers in my life as they come up leaving them unchallenged. I realise now I've spent my whole life burying the past and now it seems to have caught up with me.

More triggers this week. Coincidence with the sudden frequency? (I've gone years btwn triggering incidents before)

A picture of my mom fell into my lap from nowhere.
I came across a book full of notes from a difficult time.
Even the lack of acknowledgement and appreciation for something I did was a trigger.

My main emotion these times around is neither fear nor shame. Rather it is resentment - and a lot of it. I don't like this person I've been these last few weeks; snappy and angry. I've even allowed it to come through here and other communication. Sigh. I am trying to cope.

The thing is, tonight it support group and I am making myself sick about going. I worry that fellow might be there. I really need a strategy to help get me there.