Dear current T,

I'm already feeling a bit nervous for school. It won't start until September. But it's now official that I can attend college. There's no reason not to go. But I'm scared. I'm afraid I can't do it. I'll mess everything up again. I'm really not suitable for life.

Tomorrow I'll see you again. I wrote down my thoughts about other T. I should talk about that. It isn't getting better. There are a lot of angry thoughts, also hurting/sad thougths. I'm afraid to show you all those angry thoughts. It's a lot. It's angry. I'm afraid you'll think less of me.