ok Im confused. you try and divorce him in the past and now you want him to leave but yet you keep trying to initiate having sex with him...

Im wondering if he is as confused as I am.. maybe this is why he doesnt return your advances... because he knows you really want a divorce and may not actually love him....

there is a difference between lust (sex for the joy of sex, sex because of attraction, sex because of maybe if I have sex that will fix everything..) vs love ( deep caring, want nothing but the best for someone, fondness for someone, tenderness, warmth, not all about sex, its about hand holding, cuddling, doing things together and enjoying doing so, wanting to be close to that person, not run away from them, not push them away.)

my suggestion is think about how you really feel about him and then show him, not by pushing him away and locking yourself in your room and get drunk. maybe you can find a way to really show him you love him in non sexual ways. you know the ways you showed him you love him when you first met, when you were dating when you first realized you loved him. those kinds of things.

maybe once the double messages (I love you,get out now) gets cleared up for you things will be clearer for him and then maybe that will carry over to your sex life.....just a suggestion to think about.