This time last year I was working a 60k job as an e-learning specialist. Ended up in a partial hospitalization program due to stress and being bipolar. I took 6 months off, and now I've been working at what is supposed to be a part-time, stress-free, low paying job and I am just dying inside. It's just as stressful for me to go to this "easy" job as it was to go to the more challenging one. I don't feel like I can go another day due to the stress and anxiety.

I want to go on disability so badly, as I also have a back pain issue, but I can't afford to quit working long enough to get qualified for benefits. I'm struggling here.