I've been diagnosed with bipolar i and panic disorder.
It's really hard to explain.

-feels like nothing around me is real, I question whether everything around me is really happening
-feels like I don't belong in my body, I don't recognize myself
-feels like my head is going to explode
-sometimes it gets so severe I feel like I'm never going to think straight again
-if I don't stay distracted these symptoms happen and I feel like I'm losing my mind
-cant sleep at night because when I close my eyes these symptoms happen