Its been over a year, at least, of talking with my T and deciding if I should see a psychiatrist. I finally got up the courage to make an appointment three weeks ago. My T has said from the first conversation that he would write up something that I could take with me. My appointment is in about 9 hrs and my T sent me a message earlier saying he doesn’t think he should write it and wanted to know if I would be ok with that. I told him no and I still wanted it but he hasn’t responded. I don’t know what to do. The letter was like a security blanket and made it tolerable, and took some of the pressure off me to explain why i’m there. He’s bailing on me in a huge way and its really upsetting on top of all the anxiety from the appointment. I should have just cancelled, now if I don’t go I’ve go to pay $75 dollars. I’ll have to quit therapy, i don’t see I can trust him anymore if he bails like this. I cant understand why he would wait this close to when I go to change his mind like this?