Have you applied for SSDI, cash? Talk to a lawyer. It may be in your best interest. And you can go for permanent disability alimony, too, and depending on your state of residence.

I had a horrible divorce where my ex attempted to portray me as a crazy person and he wanted 90% custody lol

He demanded psych evaluation so I said sure. It was no secret that I'm bipolar lol. His results came out that he was a narcissist- oops! He shot himself in the foot on that one.

We do 50/50 custody and I have disability alimony for life. It only took me three months to get approved for SSDI - it doesn't always take years. Talk to an attorney. Find a mean legal divorce shark that knows what he is doing and will fight for you. If you retain him now your husband can't hire him. lol No need to file now just do a retainer.

Don't let him cajole you into a divorce mediation where you don't have legal counsel. There is just a mediator and the couple seeking divorce.

My ex tried to talk me into that citing how faster and cheaper it would be. Given my fragile mental state during that time, he could have easily taken advantage of me with an unfair settlement.

Sorry for all the unsolicited advice but I think you should get a damn good divorce lawyer on retainer now. Discuss options. xo