I have only now read your post and I am so grateful that you are here. Thankyou for your comments and insights and strength. I think you are a marvellous human being to have done what you have done professionally and be able to admit that you suffer from a mental illness yourself.
The toll of your professional must have been tremendous but think of all the people you DID help, the numbers who found comfort and help and whose lives were better for having had you there to assist them.
I look forward to hearing more of your story and your insights. You are among friends.