at this point there is no way i can say no . i know i am a weak person and its ok if people see me this way it is who i am . but i am working on it. it takes time and this isnt going to be that time . they dont know i am in therapy .if they did all hell would break loos they would do whatever they could to stop this . if i told them no i would need to explain and i cant deal with that now. it is easier to miss a session even though i feel horrible about it then to explain or lie. and of all the family members my step mother is the only person left that still gives me the slightest hope of having any kind of family member who doesnt publicaly humiliate me and state how much im a disappointment to everyone . i know im weak but i cant do this yet