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Originally Posted by MommyDear
I am just wonering if anybody here has been addicted to any ampetamine-like substances?
I was first introduced to adderall when I was 17 years old. I am now 29 and have been using adderall/methamphetamine/phentermine/Etc. almost daily for the past umpteen years. Anything that's an upper. I don't even her high anymore, I literally do it to stay awake and have energy. Since I started, I can honestly say I haven't been sober for even an accumulative year. ****ing sad. I'm scared to get sober because I've spent my entire early adult life using, and I'm not sure how I would do...well, life...without them. I'm miserable. I'm always stressed. I'm grumpy, irritable, moody, not to mention broke. I would say I spend anywhere from 600-1000 a month on meth at this point. So far I've gotta away with being a "functioning" addict, but my tolerance has become disgustingly high that I'm barely able to afford it without it being obvious somethings going on. Im looking for support from fellow users.
I might add, I have a 4. Year old daughter and I want to be someone she's proud of, not someone she's ashamed of. I don't want to cause her emotional baggage when she's older.
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I had a crooked pdoc that put me on vyvanse that ruined my life. And before that I would party with mass amounts of adderall every once in awhile. But having that script of my own was the end of me. I had a very demanding job at the time so I would abuse it to get through the day. Every day needing more and more. And when my script ran out (a week after filling it!) I would by adderall from friends. If I couldn't find any I would spend days in bed coming down. This lead to erratic behavior at work which then lead to me getting fired. Not to mention I have bipolar so It made me very bad and severely depressed. After my script got taken away I spent months in bed in a deep depression and I just lately started coming around again. And you know what?! If someone were to call me right now offering, I'd buy the junk again.
I see people on here being prescribed stimulants for depression and I just shake my head. Stimulant abuse causes a severe depletion of chemicals in our brains so when we come down, it's the end of the world. I truly wish you the best hun.
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